I've been on Dihydracodeine for years and I have just had some tests done 'an MOT sort of thing' because I was getting a shortened of breath, pains in my chest like I was having a heart attack, and some results showed abnormalities in my haemoglobin but I am trying not to think about that until the next six weeks when I get checked again.. I don't know if this is because of the fact of the medication I am on or because of a side affect in the sense of that, I feel low energy levels, so therefore don't do the kinds of fitness I use to do, I totally do nothing at all from someone who has swam for the north of England in youth UK championships, I was a city club champion runner, youth champion, 56 out of over 10'000 people in the Tyneside Triathlon and cycled to the point my lat's had lat's :-) anyhoo I had a motor bike crash in 2001 and things haven't been the same since, my life has just became a prescription junky I cannot live without pain killing medication and have had pain killer addiction 3 times, but being left with the choice of unbearable pain or taking pain medication? I am now worrying about think this haemoglobin abnormality which could be as little as just being anaemic or cancer? sickle cell disease - well lets put it this way, I have spoken to someone but I am in hyper-drive thinking about what it could be!! trying to study is hard worrying about things, as I'm doing my level 5 beauty therapy, DTLLS along with other things and well pain and worry about my health is the last thing I need! I just want to have energy and be able to do more with my life and enjoy it, I am sick of being to tired to do anything worthwhile, my social life is the pits and I basically have no life other than my career, I miss going out clubbing, having a drink and enjoying life which I simply don't do because pain has affected me so much! of course my friends say have a drink it numbs the pain, which with pain killers I guess does, but I don't drink really and don't have a life really! I hold my piss in because I can't even be bothered to have one! that's how shit I feel and how down! I spend hours, days on my own and I think most of the people I meet are just how can I put this? fucked up, I don't really want to mix with them, there are so many people I like and that but I often feel it is one sided in the sense of, making an effort! so I think fuck em all!! I am in pain and make an effort, I have real genuine issues and I make an effort, others just can't even be bothered to make a cup of tea when I go to visit, I have to make it my self, I mean I'd never expect someone ever to make themselves a cup of tea in my house unless I couldn't walk, which of course I have been paralised since 2001 over 30 times for up to six weeks sometimes 8, so therefore I'd expect them too! but not if I am able to walk to my kitchen, just bad manners and anti social fucked up friends who I cannot be bothered to visit because they are lazy! so I end up being on my own! sit and get on with theory. family are no better and yes I am very angry and upset, but I keep it to myself instead of telling the whole fucking lot of them how fucking dysfunctional they all are! they piss me right off! I am a nice person, I have done many things for other people, even put them before my own well being and what do anyone do for me? fk all... well I would rather be on my own than share a minute with anyone, I mean they complain I don't invite them to mine now, guess why ass holes? I'm in pain and I get more joy from an 85 year old neighbour more than I ever do any of you!! Any way I have totally lost the point there but yea pain is shit... but I'd like to know more about the side affects yea !!
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